Well my fourth cycle is well under way and unfortunately I have neglected this blog for quite some time. This cycle was a back to back cycle and I can say that I was not looking forward to it. I had commited to the agency around 5 months ago to do this cycle and I decided to move forward because I had given my word, although my body and my husband have been screaming for a break. I just kept telling myself "only a couple more months, whats a couple months when I am helping a couple have a baby?"

So fast forward. The cycle has been going well I started Lupron - 10 units, Dexamethasone, BC, Aspirin, and Vitamins on Monday April 14th.

Then stims started on Sunday April 27th: Lupron was down to 5 units, Repornex @ 2 vials, and Follistim 50 units.

On April 30th I had my screening and was told to hold off on lupron that day as my E2 level was 600

May first I took 1 vial of Repornex, 25 units of Follistim and 5 units on Lupron.

On May 2nd (Friday) I went back to the clinic for monitoring was told some terrible news. The IM decided to cancel the cycle!! I couldn't believe it!!! Here I am with 40+ follicles around 10.5-12.5 in size and no idea what to do.
The Agency spoke with me a little and told me I could complete the cycle and they would cover my compensation (otherwise I would be left with close to nothing and miserably full) or ? I was pretty upset, after all how could they let this happen? I am kicking myself and very angry at the lawyer since I have no idea what is now covered and what to do. I left feeling a bit scared and very confused - after a couple hours I came up with more questions but since it is Friday the agency is closed and the donor nurses are not in to help me answer them. At least the blood work came back well as far as E2 levels. I am still taking Repornex 1, Follistim 25 and Lupron 5

Fastward to today Sunday, May 3rd. I was hoping my monitoring visit would help to anwser some questions (since I can see a doctor) instead it has only left me with more. I asked what my options were should I choose to cancel the cycle (I don't like the idea that they will split my eggs up and give them to multiple couples...remember I agreed to donate to one couple - who then has the right to do whatever with their eggs)
The Dr. told me that the clinic would trigger me and then put me on BCPs so I would shed the follicles. Who knows how I would feel, but should I cancel they would not retrieve to aspirate the follicles. My other option would be to complete the cycle and the clinic would get the eggs and divvy them up. The agency says they can match the eggs to other IPs but I am confused as to who owns them and are they then making money off them? Or are they donating them? It is so confusing because then I would still sign contracts with IPs. I want to cry at this point - I feel pigeon holed. My e2 levels are good though and are at 3104. Same Rep, Lup, and Follistim amounts.

Tomorrow is more monitoring and hopefully I can talk to the agency. Retrival is soon so I feel like I am racing against the clock to sort this mess out.

Anyhow I will keep this blog updated.